California State of Mind: April 2009

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Pieces of decor

I feel like I've already showcased these, but I'm doing it again because I must love them that much! They're pillows from Alexandra Ferguson. Cute huh?

Also, I did vote FOR letters at home.

Small places and surfin' USA

I've never been a fan of huge places. 1500 sq ft might be the most I'd go for. Cleaning, managing it all would be too much.

Casey Marie's place [via AT]

My other dream was to own a VW bus, wear sundresses, go swimming a lot (even though I suck at it)... think Beach Boys. Here's a skateboarder's home that I admire just as much (via MadeByGirl).

The above images are from San Fran. I love how those houses look, the facade on the street. This Young House also featured a similar picture of houses in Richmond, VA.

I left my night class yesterday for 30 minutes to get my award from the Education Department for Leadership and Service. Darn right.

I probably did not mention this, but I've been attempting to eat healthy for the past week. I forget what I did on Sunday. I think I ate well, but I won't count it. Everyday, I have eaten yogurt for breakfast (except a Lean Cuisine on one day), an apple, salad from Greenlife, and a Lean Cuisine for dinner. I had pita bread with hummus also today. I'm also working out in yoga and aerobics. So far, I've lost 5+ pounds. I just need to continue. What helps? Tutoring. Spring. I love tutoring and feel like I'm there. It makes me happy and not so stressed. Spring is here too! The weather is gorgeous and warm and sunny. I love it. I realized I prefer spring/summer over fall/winter.

I have to figure out how to schedule my mom and dad in when they come. Mom will be here on Sunday and dad will be here on the 13th at night. Great... I have to clean this weekend.

P.S. My British history paper is sad... :( I have maybe 2 pages of half writing, half notes. I hope I can get 6 pages. It seems much harder than I had thought this morning. My meeting with my prof allowed me to think of my thesis though. :) I also finished watching "Samoan Wedding" and now I want to go to New Zealand. It took me a long time to finish it, but I'm glad I did and actually paid attention to it. The background was beautiful and fit the nice weather here.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

How did I get myself into so many things?

First off, love this song!

G-Love (U Dont Love Me) (ft. LeToya Luckett) - Gucci Mane

My yoga paper and sociology papers can wait until the weekend! Sweet! Both are easy but need to be done.

My goal for the week - finish my British history paper. Well, it's not even a goal. It's a necessity. I will be freaking out about it all week. I have barely started. I wrote down some notes, but I'm still lost. I think I need the class tomorrow to get everything I need. I can answer most of the first part but none of the second part. Instead of doing my paper, I spent an hour or so making one of my faves a birthday card. He's a sophomore who turned 17 today... huh...

Ah, so I know I need to shower right now. Instead, I'm attempting to watch "Samoan Wedding" for the 50th time. Okay, maybe not that much.

Lots of things to do over the next half month:

April 27 - one of my fave's 17th birthday (writing this down so I will always remember it!)
April 28 - Academic and Leadership Awards Ceremony 7pm (make I can go if I ask my prof, but I need to go to class for the notes)
April 30 - Financial aid exit meeting 2:15pm
May 1 - British history paper due!
May 3 - mom arrives
May 4 - yoga and soc papers due
May 5 - grades due for seniors
May 4, 5 - last day with my kids unless I can figure out something! :(
May 5 - student teaching orientation at night (not sure what time)
May 7 - tutoring staff dinner 5pm
May 8 - surprise party for a pal 8pm
May 11 - tutoring year end banquet 6-7:30pm
May 14 - judging AHS graduation projects 6-8:30pm
May 15 - graduation practice and breakfast
May 16 - commencement 9 AM

This week though, British history paper. I need it to be good so I can maintain my A. :)

Another song I can't help but enjoy:

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Healthy eating & exercise has gotten me nowhere.

I was supposed to have lost weight. But no, somefuckinghow, I gained back almost half of my weight I lost. Though, it doesn't seem like it and I have done nothing to have gained it back. I've been working out. WTF. isaf(R_DSfp]90cpvl I hate what my body does. What the fuck is wrong with it? I work hard and I'm still not getting anything done... :/

No more eating and drinking. Okay, as in no more eating, I'm having soup/salad/Healthy Choice frozen entrees and yogurt. That is all... and only when hungry. Eating cannot be part of my life anymore. I'm so pissed off about this. I don't even know what happened. I refuse to gain back any weight. ANY.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

My students are all I need right now

I forgot to mention today that when I got home, I got an invitation to the leadership award ceremony on Tuesday. Sadly, I cannot go because I have class. :(

I have so much to do and little motivation to do it. Instead, I went out for a bit tonight. Probably the worst idea ever. I think that the absolutely amazing Atlanta trip just made me more sad. I'm happy I got the chance to go, but I'm super depressed now. I don't mind graduating, but I don't want to student teach and not see my kids. Since the county and the city schools have different schedules, I'm going to be taking my day offs to see my kids and then go to their Friday night games. I know, I should go to games at my observation site, but you have no idea how much I love my students. That's all I talked about. I'm going to see them all next week. I'm even considering asking if I can stick around and help around in the classroom for the next month.

I can't imagine what my life will be like without tutoring every week. I will need to stay in touch with these students so that I know how they are/what they are doing. For example, I didn't even know one kid was moving. :( I want to send them birthday cards next semester... I'll need to remember to have them jot it down.

They made me so happy that everything over the next week will be crap in comparison. Most of all, I hate hate hate all this talk about boyfriends and girlfriends from all my peers. I am going to just wait for something to just fall in my lap. I am already given so much love and built 150+ relationships. I'm sick of people talking about their significant others and their problems. Then, urging me to get on the same boat. Geez. My kids make me feel good. I'm always welcome and adequate and I feel the same way towards them. This is why they are my favorite people.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Best trip everrr!

Where have I been? My favorite city with my favorite people! I know that's ridiculous, but no one can entertain me so much and make me love this city anymore. I didn't get annoyed like I might on trips. Instead, I had too much fun that I feel guilty about it! Haha. They are not overly mature and they are cultured. We didn't have to prevent the girls/guys from sneaking into each others' room (apparently, this happened once on a trip) and they loved the world fresh market (unlike a group of students last year). I love the sophomores and juniors! I'm sad that I didn't tutor the sophomores last year! :( Since I never get to see the morning sophs anymore, I am going all next week!

I think this trip made us all a little closer. :)

Spelman College

I love this picture! She took a picture of me when I took a picture of her. She is too cute!

The Varsity - I love these boys! Adorable!

I love them too! Funny poses at Centennial Park

Look how much fun they're having at the playground!

High schoolers not afraid of being young

Pretending to walk like the marchers at the MLK Historic Site

MLK Historic Site Reflecting Pool on a really hot day

Me with the boys at MLK Historic Site

Getting shade at Emory University

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Thanks for rubbing it in damnit.

I am so fucking pissed after this phone call. I'm sorry but I can't be happy for others when I vied for the same things myself.

I can't fucking believe it. I was NOT told about the fact that I had to do 4 events a semester to get an NSCS cord. Then my friend decided to be a bitch and told me I could just buy one. That's fake. I didn't really get one. At least with the Phi Alpha Theta sash, there was only one way of getting it. I better still get my other cords and crap. Whatever NSCS, fuck you.

Also, I was told I was nominated for an award. Since they fucked up last year and since I AM pretty much outstanding in the education department, I BETTER win. But no, I didn't get an invitation. My friend did. jklahsdfeiosf and then she has to rub it in. Thanks a fucking lot.

Did I do too much but did not dedicate myself to anything? NOOOOO. I have tutored forever, and my kids love me. Screw this, I'm going to attach pictures of my kids onto my darn robe.

Now I can't even do work.

6 more school days and I need less distractions

Wednesday - tutoring, pick up yoga book, class, EDUC396 work, AVID interviews, aerobics, EDUC396, pack!

Thursday - Atlanta trip, read yoga book with free time

Friday - Atlanta trip, sociology paper

Saturday - ODK bake sale, sociology paper, EDUC380 script (go to library!), EDUC396

Sunday - EDUC396

Monday - EDUC396 due?, paper 3

Tuesday - EDUC396 due?, paper 3

Wednesday - paper 3, sociology paper due?

Thursday - paper 3

Friday - paper 3 due

P.S. I'm graduating with... hopefully magna cum laude, cords for Omicron Delta Kappa (leadership) and NSCS (general), sashes for Phi Alpha Theta (history) and for being Asian (seriously... is this even more separatist or what? But I'm greedy and I want more sashes.)